Stefan: You know, there were these moments in that safe, a stillness in time when I was dead right before I was about to come back to life, I would think about things in the past that made me happy, things that gave me hope. All these things kept me sane. They pushed me to hang on when all I wanted to do was give up and turn off my humanity, but eventually, the pain took those moments away from me, too.
Every time I close my eyes, I can see Silas stabbing me, I can feel myself drowning, and I need to make it stop. If I don’t kill him, I’m gonna lose my mind, or I’m gonna turn off my humanity…or both.